Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Just a bit of an update on my pregnancy so far.

On Tuesday i went in for a blood test to check my HCG levels and got a call back from my doctor on Wednesday who said they looked great. So that was very encouraging and so then on Monday (being yesterday) i went in again for the same test to see if the levels were increasing and they are! They're not doubling every few days like some of the sites i've read say they should but i know that that doesn't necessarily mean anything and that the Lord is in control, He has this child in His hands and I trust in Him...

...and so as long as i continue to feel well, i won't be going in for any more tests or ultrasounds or anything until my 13th week when hopefully the doctor will be able to hear the heartbeat!

I sincerely want to thank you all for your prayers of health and safety for the baby and peace for me. i am feeling very good and am getting excited about having a really healthy pregnancy.

Lots of fresh, cool, colorful smoothies and salads throughout the summer months! And lots of walking and relaxing out of doors.
I want to enjoy this pregnancy to the full and if being healthy keeps me energized and joyful then i'm gonna do my utmost to eat as best i can and to be as active as possible.

I am so deeply thankful for the chance to experience another pregnancy, all of the good and even the sometimes not-so-good aspects of it all....

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Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Poetry... to me...

What is poetry?

Seeing your child dancing in drifts
of winter white and joining him
Laying side by side, together,
on the floor, doing puzzles

Laughing, heads thrown back
in absolute surrender with joy
Sobbing, heads together,
arms around close, with sorrow

Moments strung together
along this thread called life
Relationships in happy chaos,
aching beauty, ...pain

This is poetry...
Being one with each other.
Us, united,
in this glorious wonder.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

In all things...

"Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I five to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled.]" John 14:27 Amplified Bible

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1Thes.16-18 NIV

And so i give thanks:

For joy over new life within,
For peace that He has given,
For His Word that chases away fear,
For quiet hope in the Lord
And for faith that His promises are true.

For health and strength,
For beauty in the every day,
Streaks of crimson against morning sky,
Little boy voices talking together, playing contentedly,
The opportunity to raise these young ones for the kingdom,
For worship music in the home that calms the soul,
And for the ability to learn new things.

So many endless gifts bestowed upon us, i am humbled by His grace.

Friday, January 8, 2010

I've got something to tell you...

I'm pregnant!

"Rejoice in the Lord always, and again i say, REJOICE!" Philippians 4:4

This has been such an amazing answer to prayer. After my miscarriage in October, i prayed and i know others prayed that i would conceive again soon and that i would have hope and peace about the future. And God gave me those things... a quiet hope that i would have another child again someday and a peace that He loved me and cared deeply for me. And now i have conceived again just two months later!

"I will sing to the Lord, because he has dealt bountifully with me." Psalm 13:6

After having two miscarriages, i admit that i am a little nervous but...

"it is good for me to draw near to God; i have put my trust in the Lord God and made Him my refuge, that i may tell of all (His) works." Psalm 73:28

So i continue to pray for peace and for the strength to put my trust and hope in the Him. When i can't seem to find the words, i turn to His Word and have been dwelling on this promise:

"You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.

So trust in the Lord(commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him) forever; for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages]." Isaiah 26:3&4

Normally i would never tell my friends that i was expecting until i was at least 12 weeks (i'm almost 5 weeks now) but i have really felt strongly that i need to let others hold me up in prayer as well and so i am letting you know so that we can rejoice together in His faithfulness and pray that He will guard and protect this new life within me.

And i feel such a confidence that no matter what... He is good and i will praise Him.